i don't know what's up with the title and maybe there's a link. maybe not.
up until now at this point in my life, there's nothing i want more than to clean up all the mess and loose ends (sounds like murder) and start from a clean slate. (now that seriously sounds like murder.)
i did not kill anyone la.
guess i just need to rant. i pulled myself out of a 2-year relationship. it was a struggle for me to make a decision but i had to put my foot down and told myself it would do us both good. he said he would wait for me until i'm ready to start afresh. i didn't have the heart to say i won't turn back, after i heartlessly said i wanted out of the relationship.
i read a post on facebook yesterday, something about finding a man who would tell you you're 'beautiful' instead of 'hot', one who would watch you sleep etc etc, the mushy works. and she had like, i think 6 'likes' for that post. i couldn't resist - i commented "untrue. because if you don't the guy, everything else doesn't matter."
i know how cynical i must have sounded to a lot of people. some might say it's because i'm going through a break up. i won't say i don't feel anything about this break up, but i'm not depressed or suicidal or anything like that. in fact, i would support what i commented above because that's exactly how i feel at the moment.
yes, i want a guy who tells me i am beautiful and who would watch me sleep. but that is IF that guy is someone i like, or have feelings for. i found the guy who is almost the guy every girl wants, but unfortunately we've lost the spark. and as i'm typing this out, i'm feeling the loss but i don't regret. because i've experienced it, and now i know for sure what i want. it's just not written in the fates for us.
having said that, he's trying to act like we can still be friends and hang out. personally i think we need a window period. if you keep asking me out every weekend, then what difference does it make whether we're together or not? i need the space to find myself again. to connect with my other friends. to search for what is it i should be doing with my life. a relationship is not something i should have right now when i cannot even find a purpose in my life.
so i'm gonna remove the status thing on facebook. i know, it might be something stupid but it feels like a symbol of sorts. i was gonna remove the 'in a relationship' status a few days ago, and facebook gave me a 'Your relationship with xxx will be canceled upon saving.' my heart suffered a slight tug, and i cancelled the action. such a coward, i know.
and i just did it, 2 seconds ago before i typed this. my relationship is officially 'cancelled'. no, i don't feel liberated. on the contrary i don't know if i'm doing the right thing by ending what seemed to be an okay relationship.
i can only hope i did, and that what will be, will be.
right now, i just need to focus on my life.
August 31, 2011
August 29, 2011
Jelly mania on blogpress!
i've been wanting to make some konnyaku jelly and even bought the ingredients but i always managed to procrastinate. until now! (actually, no date on sunday and i was bored. lol.)
so i thought of doing a fancy post on how to make said jelly, since i've never done a recipe post ever. it was kinda funny because all i used was my iphone and i figured, might as well try this blogpress iphone app and see how convenient it is to post to blogger via mobile. if it works awesomely satisfactory i might post more often, and with photos from the iphone too! ;D of course i hope it's temporary till i get a proper laptop.........
anyway, i digress. so please bear with my photos because they're taken with my iphone 3GS (so no HD) and i used some photo apps to watermark and put them together.
things you need:
1) konnyaku jelly powder - i'm using the Red Man brand, it's a premix and so far can only be bought from Phoon Huat. it's like about $2.10 a box and can make about 12 pieces of jelly.
2) nata de coco - i got this from cold storage and sorry i forgot how much this is, but it shouldn't be too expensive. like maybe $2?
3) measuring cup to measure 500mL of water
4) small pot (those used to cook maggie mee size is good enough)
5) a plastic ladle for stirring (plastic so it's easier to wash)
6) plastic jelly molds - can get these from phoon huat too!
okie so this is how the jelly powder packaging looks like. this is lychee flavored btw. no need additional coloring or flavoring - just add water!
first, measure 500mL of water. i didn't use a measuring cup for this but a not-so-accurate cup. lol. then i realized there's a marking on the inside of the pot too so it's pretty accurate. ^^
put the water to boil and lower the fire once you see tiny bubbles.
while waiting for the water to boil, cut open the packet of nata de coco and put 3-4 pieces into each mold (depending on the mold size). this is the Jubes brand i got from cold storage; there are different flavors too but i prefer the generic lychee one. :)
so once the water is boiled and fire lowered, pour the powder slowly into the water, stirring with the plastic ladle at the same time. this is to prevent bubbling besides dissolving the powder thoroughly. (because i have to take photo, i couldn't demonstrate "pour & stir at the same time". hehe paiseh paiseh.)
when you're done pouring everything the mixture should be a thick liquid. keep stirring until once you see bubbles, then turn off the flame to let the bubbles dissipate, but keep stirring.
slowly pour into the mold (i used the ladle); do not "dump" because it will cause air bubbles. there's nothing to having bubbles, just that it looks ugly. lol. mine has a lot of bubbles because i was hungry so i did it in a half-rush. =/
fill the mold until it's slightly convex but not overflowing. this will aid in removing the jelly from the mold later on.
if you read the instructions on the box, they tell you to chill after filling the molds. but personally i will let the jelly cool down for a while (like 30 mins) before putting them in the refrigerator because it will spoil the fridge if you put the mold in while it's hot. (i read it somewhere. lol dunno if it's true but better to be safe than sorry.)
i took about 30 mins for each packet of jelly so by the time i was done with the second packet, i dumped the first lot into the fridge. :D these are the strawberry-flavored and apple-flavored ones.
i like to match the colors according to each mold so like i have green and red apples or white grapes. hehehe.
so it has to be chilled for 3 hours. to remove each jelly, i squeezed the mold slightly and sort of plucked the jelly out. lol.
kinda hard to explain, this is where the convex part will come in handy!
serve chilled! ^^
do let me know if the instructions are easy to follow. my friend said she's gonna pester me if she can't understand. so please justify for me in case i get haunted. lol!
btw if you're interested to know about this blogpress app, i tried to type and add photo at the same time but somehow i couldn't get it right. what i did eventually was to type everything out before including the photos in between paragraphs. hmm seems better this way! *cross fingers*
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone
edit: blogpress apparently doesn't have the option to tag your posts with labels so that's a minus point. but all in all it's a pretty convenient app to blog on-the-go! (Y)
so i thought of doing a fancy post on how to make said jelly, since i've never done a recipe post ever. it was kinda funny because all i used was my iphone and i figured, might as well try this blogpress iphone app and see how convenient it is to post to blogger via mobile. if it works awesomely satisfactory i might post more often, and with photos from the iphone too! ;D of course i hope it's temporary till i get a proper laptop.........
anyway, i digress. so please bear with my photos because they're taken with my iphone 3GS (so no HD) and i used some photo apps to watermark and put them together.
things you need:
1) konnyaku jelly powder - i'm using the Red Man brand, it's a premix and so far can only be bought from Phoon Huat. it's like about $2.10 a box and can make about 12 pieces of jelly.
2) nata de coco - i got this from cold storage and sorry i forgot how much this is, but it shouldn't be too expensive. like maybe $2?
3) measuring cup to measure 500mL of water
4) small pot (those used to cook maggie mee size is good enough)
5) a plastic ladle for stirring (plastic so it's easier to wash)
6) plastic jelly molds - can get these from phoon huat too!
okie so this is how the jelly powder packaging looks like. this is lychee flavored btw. no need additional coloring or flavoring - just add water!
first, measure 500mL of water. i didn't use a measuring cup for this but a not-so-accurate cup. lol. then i realized there's a marking on the inside of the pot too so it's pretty accurate. ^^
put the water to boil and lower the fire once you see tiny bubbles.
while waiting for the water to boil, cut open the packet of nata de coco and put 3-4 pieces into each mold (depending on the mold size). this is the Jubes brand i got from cold storage; there are different flavors too but i prefer the generic lychee one. :)
so once the water is boiled and fire lowered, pour the powder slowly into the water, stirring with the plastic ladle at the same time. this is to prevent bubbling besides dissolving the powder thoroughly. (because i have to take photo, i couldn't demonstrate "pour & stir at the same time". hehe paiseh paiseh.)
when you're done pouring everything the mixture should be a thick liquid. keep stirring until once you see bubbles, then turn off the flame to let the bubbles dissipate, but keep stirring.
slowly pour into the mold (i used the ladle); do not "dump" because it will cause air bubbles. there's nothing to having bubbles, just that it looks ugly. lol. mine has a lot of bubbles because i was hungry so i did it in a half-rush. =/
fill the mold until it's slightly convex but not overflowing. this will aid in removing the jelly from the mold later on.
if you read the instructions on the box, they tell you to chill after filling the molds. but personally i will let the jelly cool down for a while (like 30 mins) before putting them in the refrigerator because it will spoil the fridge if you put the mold in while it's hot. (i read it somewhere. lol dunno if it's true but better to be safe than sorry.)
i took about 30 mins for each packet of jelly so by the time i was done with the second packet, i dumped the first lot into the fridge. :D these are the strawberry-flavored and apple-flavored ones.
i like to match the colors according to each mold so like i have green and red apples or white grapes. hehehe.
so it has to be chilled for 3 hours. to remove each jelly, i squeezed the mold slightly and sort of plucked the jelly out. lol.
kinda hard to explain, this is where the convex part will come in handy!
serve chilled! ^^
do let me know if the instructions are easy to follow. my friend said she's gonna pester me if she can't understand. so please justify for me in case i get haunted. lol!
btw if you're interested to know about this blogpress app, i tried to type and add photo at the same time but somehow i couldn't get it right. what i did eventually was to type everything out before including the photos in between paragraphs. hmm seems better this way! *cross fingers*
- Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone
edit: blogpress apparently doesn't have the option to tag your posts with labels so that's a minus point. but all in all it's a pretty convenient app to blog on-the-go! (Y)
August 28, 2011
Getting to know you. Again.
i finally met up with my primary school friends, after 15 years! (okay so now you know my age. lol.) there was a lot of planning going on and i missed it the first time round with Peiyi, Peiqi & Betsy. i remember that gathering was a lot bigger but ended up with the said 3 only. me, i got stuck at work so i couldn't make it then.
this time Peiyi did the planning (i think), like making sure we're all free on the same date etc. plan was to finally meet and catch up with Yihui and i think the plan turned out pretty awesome, because we were 3, and plus 1. (realise that sounds somewhat scandalous LOL.)
so we made plans to meet at serangoon gardens at a super-ulu italian restaurant Buono. turned out that besides Peiyi and Yihui, Peimin was coming too! she just came back from Chengdu after a long long time and i was really excited to meet them.
and then i was late. lol. okay can i just say that the map on the iphone is really retarded because i was using it to gauge the bus stop i was supposed to alight at, and by the time the location could sync with the phone i was past 1 bus stop. so i had to walk about 1.5 bus stops in the slight drizzle and kinda dark ulu area. lol dramatic much.
anyhoo. i thought i was headed the wrong way because you really cannot see the restaurant, especially if the roads are packed with cars (they practically block your view of the entire road till the end) because the restaurant is right inside. which is good, i think. like Yihui said, serangoon gardens is packed all the time and Buono provides a good ambience minus the crowd. however, the restaurant is comfortably filled with families and while i was approaching the entrance, i overheard a lady say "the restaurant is full already!" so please make a reservation if you're planning to check out the place. the boss is really nice and has a generic italian restaurant boss angmoh face. haha!
you'd think that a reunion dinner i'd have loads of photos to post. i don't. because we're so mature and got caught up with conversation. no laaaa we forgot. ><" which is a pity because the photos would have been a great keepsake.
so the conversation inevitably steered to MEN, for what do you get when you put 4 ladies together. lol. some things don't change. :)
our night ended with an inpromptu movie Final Destination 5 and besides being frozen in the newly-renovated Lido, we kinda freaked out at the scenes. lol. it was awesome. actually, i was lmao-ing more than scared because the movie was SO exaggerated, i think for 3D's sake. but HENG we watched the non-3D one. don't really wanna experience a bloody piece of body part flying into my face.
at one point when Peiyi was deciding on her ice-cream (we had ice-cream while waiting for the movie to start), the rest of us were trying to recall if Peiyi was ever so random in primary school, and we decided that i was supposed to be the random one. even i agreed but i dunno why i was so quiet (or more quiet than usual). intimidated by Peiyi. HAHA.
actually, i might have been a little inferior. life is so weird. they are the established, mature ladies and i'm still a kid (at heart, in person) at 27. i may never want to admit i'm getting older but it will always be in my face. and i haven't accomplished much. Peimin's happily married, she's a manager with opportunies to work overseas. i haven't really figured out what Yihui does but she has contacts, and obviously successful in her work. did i mention Peiyi is an engineer in a construction line? she's damn awesome. i think she gets to scold some banglahs too. lol.
and then there's me, from a laboratory technician to an assistant chemist. if you're in the chemical industry, you'll know that there's not a difference between the terms, only more fancy. i don't want to be in the lab forever. :( BUT i believe in opportunities, and i'm gonna set the wheels turning, starting tomorrow. stay tuned.
by the way, the food was really good. but then i'm biased towards pasta so don't trust me. i will post up some photos of the food later because apparently Peiyi did take some.
toodles!
this time Peiyi did the planning (i think), like making sure we're all free on the same date etc. plan was to finally meet and catch up with Yihui and i think the plan turned out pretty awesome, because we were 3, and plus 1. (realise that sounds somewhat scandalous LOL.)
so we made plans to meet at serangoon gardens at a super-ulu italian restaurant Buono. turned out that besides Peiyi and Yihui, Peimin was coming too! she just came back from Chengdu after a long long time and i was really excited to meet them.
and then i was late. lol. okay can i just say that the map on the iphone is really retarded because i was using it to gauge the bus stop i was supposed to alight at, and by the time the location could sync with the phone i was past 1 bus stop. so i had to walk about 1.5 bus stops in the slight drizzle and kinda dark ulu area. lol dramatic much.
anyhoo. i thought i was headed the wrong way because you really cannot see the restaurant, especially if the roads are packed with cars (they practically block your view of the entire road till the end) because the restaurant is right inside. which is good, i think. like Yihui said, serangoon gardens is packed all the time and Buono provides a good ambience minus the crowd. however, the restaurant is comfortably filled with families and while i was approaching the entrance, i overheard a lady say "the restaurant is full already!" so please make a reservation if you're planning to check out the place. the boss is really nice and has a generic italian restaurant boss angmoh face. haha!
you'd think that a reunion dinner i'd have loads of photos to post. i don't. because we're so mature and got caught up with conversation. no laaaa we forgot. ><" which is a pity because the photos would have been a great keepsake.
so the conversation inevitably steered to MEN, for what do you get when you put 4 ladies together. lol. some things don't change. :)
our night ended with an inpromptu movie Final Destination 5 and besides being frozen in the newly-renovated Lido, we kinda freaked out at the scenes. lol. it was awesome. actually, i was lmao-ing more than scared because the movie was SO exaggerated, i think for 3D's sake. but HENG we watched the non-3D one. don't really wanna experience a bloody piece of body part flying into my face.
at one point when Peiyi was deciding on her ice-cream (we had ice-cream while waiting for the movie to start), the rest of us were trying to recall if Peiyi was ever so random in primary school, and we decided that i was supposed to be the random one. even i agreed but i dunno why i was so quiet (or more quiet than usual). intimidated by Peiyi. HAHA.
actually, i might have been a little inferior. life is so weird. they are the established, mature ladies and i'm still a kid (at heart, in person) at 27. i may never want to admit i'm getting older but it will always be in my face. and i haven't accomplished much. Peimin's happily married, she's a manager with opportunies to work overseas. i haven't really figured out what Yihui does but she has contacts, and obviously successful in her work. did i mention Peiyi is an engineer in a construction line? she's damn awesome. i think she gets to scold some banglahs too. lol.
and then there's me, from a laboratory technician to an assistant chemist. if you're in the chemical industry, you'll know that there's not a difference between the terms, only more fancy. i don't want to be in the lab forever. :( BUT i believe in opportunities, and i'm gonna set the wheels turning, starting tomorrow. stay tuned.
by the way, the food was really good. but then i'm biased towards pasta so don't trust me. i will post up some photos of the food later because apparently Peiyi did take some.
toodles!
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